Originally posted on 10/15/2012
In my first book, I wrote about a reading I had with the very talented, national psychic medium Staci Wells. Staci specializes in determining what lessons you are working on learning during your current life. She gave me the below surprising insight: “You needed to learn that what others thought of you should not concern you. This all goes back to your prior lives. In your past lives, you had a very strong reactive streak to what others would say about you. You would always adopt the dictates of the church or the royal court to fight for. You would respond strongly whenever someone plucked your heartstrings by physically attacking them. You firmly believed that right had the might and that might will always win out. Your belief system often backfired and then you would lose your life.” She was obviously referring to my bad boy lives as Konrad and Nicholas. Brenda Posani further elaborated on this issue when I was working with her to uncover who Nicholas’ seven innocent victims were. (I am doing this research for the sequel to the Reincarnation highway book.) We determined that in the year 1630, Nicholas and his Calvary regiment were wintering in Nuremburg Germany during the 30 years war. Nicholas took a fancy to a pretty married women he saw walking down the street and he followed her home. He then was confronted by her husband when he barged into their home. Nicholas killed the husband in the encounter. The murdered man had a brother-in-law who was a newspaper publisher in the Nuremburg. The newspaper publisher righteously complained about Nicholas’ outrageous behavior in his newspaper. Nicholas obviously did not like the press he was receiving because he then sent his goons over to the publisher’s house and had the publisher killed. Brenda’s reading directly supported Staci’s reading. In conclusion, my soul does not like to be personally criticized and has killed other people in the past because of this issue. This leads me to a few events that occurred this month. While browsing the web for current pictures of statues and mosaics of Konrad von Hochstaden, I encountered a German website of medieval re-enactors and their on-line forum. In the forum, they were making fun of the obscene Konrad statue that is on the cathedral. I good naturedly got on the website and told them in German to quit mocking my statue as I was his reincarnation. I then told them about the book I was writing. Oh man, the insults spewed out of the web pages! Burn him! Cut off head etc. I thought they were play acting, so I got in the role of Konrad and called them “Brutes” and told them that they would be kneeling and kissing my ring if we were back in those times. I was just having fun and I thought they would have fun too. I then told them that there was more to their hobby because most of them were doing this to relive the times when they really were fighting men in medieval Germany. I thought that was pretty cool since I was giving their hobby high significance. That caused the insults to really fly; I was full of myself, I’m insane, I ‘m drunkard, why am I bothering them? Etc. They then unanimously banned me from the website and destroyed my posts. Yikes! Two weeks later a found the perfect website forum, a European website forum of reincarnated German soldiers. The members are individuals who had actual memories of serving in WW2 Germany. They spend a great deal of time validating their memories in the official archives. I had finally found my brothers-in -arms! Or so I thought! I registered with the website and told them my World War 2 stories. I didn’t read the fine print where they do not allow psychic derived information on their site. They liked my stories until they realized that my recollections were from psychic origins. I explained that my stories did match with the historical record except for the name Otto Kostermann. I was looking for help to validate that name, but I did not get it because the abuse just spewed out from my new friends! “I was a fraud, I was a charlatan, I just wanted to sell my book, I was full of s—t. How dare I call them comrades and brothers.” I stayed on the high road. I told them that I was just offering an explanation or theory why we had these WW2 memories. I was not preaching or pushing anything. My attitude is consider what I write and make your own judgments. It’s quite OK to disagree with me, just be civil. When I suggested that having past life memories was a “psychic ability”, the website erupted in protest and I was once again permanently barred from another website. Holy smokes, why the abuse and why did they feel so threatened? Why were they so excessively vehement in their comments? Why did everybody pile on? The reaction just seemed so excessive. Then I realized, the other side just set up a spiritual test for me. What better way to get me riled up then to have a large public attack my character and my book? The end result was that I think I finally passed the test Staci described. I did not take things personal and I tried to find an accommodation. When that was not accomplished, I did not get snarky or return insults, I just moved on. As Staci Wells revealed in the book, “You need to be less violent. In your life as Frank, you needed to resolve differences peacefully instead of swinging a sword or getting a gun. You needed to learn to be wiser and not to use aggression. A more natural way will come to you of being gentle and cooperative.” I must be making progress.